Hi, my name is Niclas, and a warm welcome to my little corner!
I’m so glad you made it here, whether it’s for yourself trying to find guidance getting sober or staying sober. Maybe you’re looking for hope for someone close to you succeeding making their way to sobriety. Or if you’re just curious.
Here you’ll mostly find me rambling my thoughts, I’m thinking of having “Story” and “Thoughts” sections. That way you’ll be able to follow my backstory and get a sneak peek inside my head, while I get to scribble it all down and share. Maybe it’ll get a little bit easier to follow that way.
Alcohol addiction has been all around me since I was born (not that I remember that far back) but it has had a huge negative impact on my life, kid as grownup since I later formed my addiction in my teens. My early years were heavily driven by codependency. What I wasn’t willing to see was the addictive personality that had flourished greatly within me.
I’ve been writing about this since my early teens. I began scribbling thoughts, questions, emotions, and experiences down which then evolved into song lyrics. This way I could speak up without having to speak up directly, they were just “lyrics”.
“October, October, please tell me I’m sober
for another month to come
November is near and I want to stay clear
in both soul and mind
As December comes, this treacherous month
Luring and tempting me blindly
I’m as weak as I get but my mind is set
To leave me behind the one that I fear
For I wish to see, another year.”
My very first fully sober eve, 22nd of October 2019, I just wrote and it became a prayer of sort.
